i wish i could understand how the world worked a little better. i wish the imagery that floats in my head and the reality of my current surroundings could co-exist. i wish sufjan stevens would put out 10 more albums by next week, my god he's good. i wish i felt everyday the way i feel right now. i wish i knew if fate is real or life is just a series of odd coincidences one after the other that make no real sense in the long run. i wish bvon still lived in pa. i wish i could focus a little more on my future. i wish i knew if wishing actually helped at all. i wish i could see myself through someone else's eyes for a day and see if im truly as hot as i think i am, wait thats ridiculous of course i am. i wish all the people that actually take the time to read these incoherent ramblings of mine and are in my life at this current piece of time would stay in my life forever. i wish my shirt would smell everyday the way it smells right now. i wish i knew how to end this entry.
i may have to be content with none of them actually happening. that sucks. but the past 24 hours have been the most odd 24 hours ive ever had in my life and if anyone could lead me down a path to accomplish some, even one of these wishes id be grateful, muy muy grateful. im confused as hell right now(i know todd confused....rare huh). i cant even verbalize my confusion now, thats how confusing it is to me. i didnt sleep much last night and i cant really focus right now, but for some reason im loving each and every song that plays out of my ipod's shuffle feature now more than i can ever remember, now maybe i just have a terrific music selection, well not maybe, of course i do, or maybe my hearing somehow enhanced itself since yesterday, i dunno, but im going to stop writing on my blog and check out fuelfriends update...they play better music on theirs.
later
